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First week of college: COMPLETE. Man oh man, it's been kind of a tough week for my body because of how much anxiety I've been getting. I have morning anxiety!!! And it's the worst thing ever!!!!!!! I try to calm down and breath, but for some reason my brain and body just won't settle down. Well, I don't really want to talk about that so here are some pictures of one of the last time my friends and I hung out for a while. 

I definitely miss this bunch. I see one of them everyday, but the other two are such great friends and it sucks not being able to hang out with them. We had some hilarious moments and hopefully we talk/see each other soon/often. So yeah, I just wanted to share those, I'll probably have another post like this soon. Hope you all have had a great week!!! =^^=

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So...I'M MOVED IN....CRAZY. I'm not gonna talk about certain people because then I'll start crying, still wounded, BUT my two days here have actually been pretty.....great!!!! I have two of my close friends here which makes everything so much easier and also my roommates are pretty cool!!! I've made a few friends here and there and it's so so cool. Classes are beginning on Monday and it's kinddaaa freaking me out, but i'm just not gonna think about it till then, hahahaha. Well, here's little pictures of my space in my (on campus) apartment!! [I actually realized that the pictures I have are kind of crappy so I will only put one, hahahah. Soon I'll get a good picture once I get a I don't know...CAMERA?!?!? Hahahha (totally kidding..kinda), here's a piece!!!

I actually find it so cute and very me (CLUTTERED AKA MY DESK). I kind of want to go for a whole different look. but this will do for now. Anyways, I live in San Francisco now, if ya didn't know hahaha, and it's pretty weird. I mean right now it's midnight and I'm in my living room drinking some calming tea and listening to Twin Peaks...IN MY OWN PLACE!?!??! WEEEIIIRDDD. Also, I'm pretty glad I got an apartment instead of a normal dorm (which was my first preference) because I would just feel claustrophobic and I wouldn't be able to hang out alone, y'know??? It's awesome being able to be alone. I realized this entire summer I got so used to being alone and not having to communicate with anyone so these days have been filled with anxiety honestly. It just gets too much when I'm around crowded people trying not to make eye contact, hahaha. But I feel fine now, I think I just have to keep myself busy and I'm good!!!

Well, I just needed to get this all out and placed in my blog. I hope you all are having wonderful days!! =^^=

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LITTLE BY LITTLE...THE CHAAANNGGEEE IS HAPPENING. This week I started packing a few boxes to send up north and it's so crazy? My room is becoming more and more bland, ready for my brother to boy it up, hahahha. Packing shoes, my precious Harry Potter movies, Clementine (my record player!!!!), and my vinyls!!!!! Agh. Packing has made me forget about my anxiety and more on the exciting new adventures i'll be hopping on. That's what I have to keep my mind on or else I might just stay...hahahah. It's been pretty hard accepting the fact I won't see my family's face everyday anymore, but I think the world has hit me with situations every time I get sad that remind me why I'm going over there, which is pretty great - Thanks, Universe!!! Okay, typing this up is actually giving me anxiety now so I gotta stop.

I GOT NEW CRYSTALS!!!! They are so beautiful and so full of energy, I can't wait to put them in my apartment!!!! We've got, from left to right, Rock Crystal, Rose Quartz, Aragonite Star Cluster, Yellow Calcite, and Ametrine. They're sooooo beautiful!!!! I already had the Rock Crystal and Rose Quartz, but I decided to get three more in order to receive more positive energy for college. Here's some quick facts of each of them:

• Rock Crystal: for your entire body; organizing/harmonizing effect when in contact with your body; quickly restores a more balanced energy; establishes calmness and clarity
• Rose Quartz: for your heart; reduces aggressive/aggravated conditions; effective healing caused my emotional stress; needs to be balanced with other calming/stabilizing stones
• Aragonite Star Cluster: for your entire body; heals the Earth; relieves anger/resentment; helps release issues of past and present
• Yellow Calcite: for your solar plexus (or stomach area); enhances intellect; cleanser of energy; gives insight on how to solve a situation; increases personal power
• Ametrine: for the crown (I'm not entirely sure about this); spiritual growth and awareness; enhances creativity; strengthens immune system; haling of body, mind, and soul

I also made these three cute buttons last week and I'm pretty proud of them!!!! I got inspiration by this video!!! Oh and also here's a picture of my crystals + buttons with the BEAUTIFUL Charlie Hunnam. The light looked cool and Charlie Hunnam is BEAUTIFUL and it just looked like a cute picture!!!

SO, yes. I am VERY behind on blogposts. I am moving Thursday and it's been quite hectic getting all my crap together. SOOO much has happened and I haven't had the heart and motivation to type it all up. I would get very emotional. I hate posting things..kind of like this, where it doesn't have as much content as I want. I don't like half-assing my posts..SOOO, hopefully once I move in and get settled I will catch up. Here's a few sentences/words that explain what has happened in the past couple of weeks: SURPRISE HARRY POTTER THEMED GOING AWAY PARTY, saying goodbyes, empty room, so much anxiety, tears, and excitement!!!! My next post will either be "YOU" or an update and hopefully it will be soon!!! Hope you all are doing absolutely fantastic, love u all =^^=

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I like to know. I like to understand. I like to be right. I like to be certain. But I also like to learn. I like look at things from a different perspective. I like to ask questions.

My friends and I went to our local fair last Friday and Arleen (who is not pictured because she was the one taking them all) is always the only one who takes candids of me. I'm usually the one behind the camera so I love when she does it nonchalantly hahahhaha. Anyways, here are a few pictures of that day as a sort of break from all my thoughts hahahah - *camera provided by Karl Lo, pictures taken by Arleen*

In all honesty, I feel like I know..A LOT and I mean A L O T for basically having no experience in basically..anything?!?!? It's kind of crazy. Every time someone asks me for advice (usually relating to relationships/sex) and I give them some reasonable advice, I end up questioning myself like..how did I know to say that?!?! I mean it was good advice to be honest, but I have never been in those situations. What does that say about me? Have I learned these things through someone indirectly? Did I just gather up information from different tv shows/movies I've seen!?!?!?! It sounds ridiculous, but you just have to know what situations to take serious and what not. I'm still a teen and still have a lot to learn, clearly, but I feel kind of prepared for what life throws at me? Maybe I just think that and once I'm put in the situation it'll be completely different, but I don't know..I think a lot. I've probably thought about every situation in every possible way and how to fix it/get away from it. Hopefully I'm prepared, I mean being heartbroken and not being able to be comfortable with a significant other and questioning people's loyalty does NOT sound fun...I need to be able to speak my mind and do what I think is right.

I look like a zombie here, it's sooo funny and sooo creepy.

I also wanted to talk a bit about problematic "famous" people, specifically musicians. Now some people can separate a band's/artist's music from the actual person's/people's actions. They can be two completely different things, liking music, liking the person. I used to think that you had to like the person in order to support them and buy their music, etc. I think it's important to think about the person's/people's actions before giving them money basically and making them more well known. Although I still think that, I also think you can still like a band/musician even if their problematic, but in my opinion and what I (try) to do is not buy their music, go to their shows, etc., which maaayyy sound kind of asshole-ish, but how am I supposed to give money to a (for example) racist person?!?!?! That's so not cool!!!! It just doesn't make sense to me.

Also my brother went on a little "not" date with a girl today and it was very weird, he's growing up. *tears*

I was going to talk about something else, but now that I has me made think about something different...do we have a right to talk about something that does not relate to us personally? We don't completely understand, and even if we try to, can we still talk about it? Do we have..the right I guess? Maybe it depends on different people, but man...now I'm scared to talk about things maybe I shouldn't talk about because it doesn't relate to me? I just like to give out a piece of my pie, but maybe..I shouldn't...? I know everyone has opinions, but if we haven't experienced it are those opinions really...valid? Comment your thoughts because I really don't know...I guess it depends on the situation as well.

Okay last thing: DANCING IN YOUR ROOM ALONE IS SUCH A HEALER. JUST TO...ANYTHING. Honestly if you're ever feeling down, try putting a nostalgic, happy song and just dance/sing to it. You may feel silly, but that's the point!!! Forget about everything for at least one song and just listen to the lyrics and feel the happiness!!!! I promise, it works.

So far I've been pretty proud of "YOU" and I still got a few people lined up and I am very excited!!! Also, I am moving out in less than 2 weeks, which has made me feel very down sometimes and given me anxiety. I handled it though with the whole dancing/singing medicine, hahahah. Well, that'll be it!! I hope you all had a wonderful weekend =^^=

"YOU" - Ariel

In high school you meet the best and worst people. You meet people who you talk to only once a day. You meet people you know..but not really know. You meet people who you really like to talk to, but don't really know them really well, but you want to know more about them. That's Ariel. Such a sweet and cool person that I definitely want to hang out with more often. She's up for anything and we have a lot of the same interests. (Also she looked very cute the day I talked to her.) We talked about the world, music, shows, and her boyfriend. One of the things I loved that she said was that she gets annoyed of her boo-thaaaang. I JUST CRACKKKEEDDD UP. Of course she was only kidding (kinda), but I just felt that that would be something I would say if I was in a relationship, it was awesome.

Of course I had to mention the Interweeebbbzzzz. One thing she found most interesting was the entire Caitlyn Jenner story. She related it it to herself and explained that it would definitely be weird if that happened personally, which I totally get. A lot of us take stories and relate it to our personal life, which I think helps us learn more about ourselves and actually learn from that. Sometimes you realize maybe you're not as open as you thought you were or the complete opposite. Obviously things like this, we all have to unite and help people who are going through difficult transitions, even if we find it "weird". We have to be able to overlook our opinions and think about what others are going through...y'know?

 Random facts about Ariel:

• favorite show: Grey's Anatomy
• favorite song: Let Her Go - Mac Demarco
• favorite person: her boyfriend (isn't it cool [and perhaps cheesy, sorry Ariel, you know I luv u], but cool to actually be able to say your significant other is your favorite person?!?!?! I think that says a lot, y'know?
• favorite HOOOOTTTIIIIEEEE: Jesse Williams (who plays Dr. Avery in Grey's Anatomy, TOTAL babe)
• only has been to ONE concert!!!! which was Red Hot Chili Peppers

I also asked her what advice has stuck with her and she said "You have to move on. Bad stuff happens, but you can't do anything about it." Cynical thoughts, but VERY true. Sometimes people get stuck on the negative aspects in life and that shapes their personality and negativity does not make for a nice person. You have to be able to look at the bad thing, face it, and realize you can't do anything about it. All you have to do is either fix it, learn from it, or make it better. Bad situations help you grow!!!! That was something I was reminded of. I do poooonnnnddeeerr over bad things too much sometimes, so thanks Ariel for reminding me of that!!!! 

One thing I loved about our conversation was that I was able to talk to her about my crazy brain!!! I explained that I take little things and just overthink about them so I wanted to ask for her opinion on one of those little things: guilty pleasures. I always thought that that phrase "guilty pleasure" was ridiculous like whhhhhyyy have we created a phrase that sort of makes being embarrassed about something kind of positive? Why are we embarrassed of certain things? Shouldn't we just be able to say "I LOVE_______" without any resentment?!?!?! She answered with how people can be judgmental so that makes us humans shrink down and regret saying what we said. The moral of the story is: don't be judgmental, you never know how hurt the other person can be and how much you can actually change them, even if they're your friend or if it was something little.

Well, there ya have it!!! "YOU" number two!!! Thank you so much to Ariel, you rock my socks off, thank you for participating in this, it means a ton!!! Hope you enjoyed the second person on "YOU" as much as I enjoyed talking and taking pictures of them. =^^=